
In my head was an ocean of thoughts,
And monologues of indistinct voices
Floating, trying not to drown
In my depths of silence.
Faceless entities broke through my mouth
And spoke to the wall with my eyes closed.
But no sleep— just teleportation
Through nostalgia’s portal.
No amount of noise was enough
To pull my eyes back to life.
I hoped to doze off and dive
Into the waves of my mind
In the light’s absence. Here,
The darkness was the screen
Framing the invisible
Like a monochrome photograph.
So, I swiftly clapped and clasped
My hands to trap the elusive entities.
In poetry’s mystical conjuring.
I hoped to wake in a dream
Where my mind becomes a small room
Peopled with voices urging me
To keep going, without showing me
The way. Sometimes, I listen
To dying whispers
Singing life into my ears.
Like Milton, dark is the sight I wield
In the socket of my skull, but not
My foresight of the road ahead.
Sometimes, I feel like a seer
Who has seen it all, but
To what end? Through this tunnel
I go, making the narrow path
My only map in and out
Of my hallucination, because
I must chase this shadow.
I keep running after this tail of mine
That leads my head
In a soothing cycle of trance.
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Tukur Ridwan is a Nigerian writer and the author of three poetry chapbooks. He serves as a poetry mentor with the SprinNG Writing Fellowship, and, in March 2018, he won the Brigitte Poirson Monthly Poetry Prize. His work has appeared in publications such as Aké Review, Poetry Potion, Coalition Works, Stripes, Engendered, Afrocritik, and ArtisansQuill, among others.
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